Essays

Lethal Dose of Power Pose

Reading Time: < 1 minute Wrote an exclusive piece about confidence and uncertainty for anti-fragilista.com Read it here and check out the other pieces, too: https://anti-fragilista.com/f/lethal-dose-of-power-pose I know you wanna say it, say it here: Wrote a very exclusive piece about confidence and uncertainty for https://t.co/NjbHnwndVFNow, brb, getting married. https://t.co/RvQux0vSbL — Silvi Simberg (@ishirubi) March 4, 2020

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Interaction = Provocation

Reading Time: 3 minutes Exploring the angle of interactions observed from the lens of provocations. Meaning – every thing you do or say in an active form, as an action, is, by design – a provocation. Now, not only in the negative sense, you might also intend to provoke someone to respond with laughter, a compliment, with gratitude; but […]

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Trust & Promises

Reading Time: 2 minutes I’ve heard so much talk of a thing called trust – and possibly talked about it myself – it never before dawned on me this whole thing might be something made up by desperate people. There’s so many common sayings around trust that I can recall right now – trust me, I’m a doctor; how do I regain […]

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Bullies and Pippis

Reading Time: 4 minutes Essentially – bullies have tasked themselves with the job of giving you feedback. Today I explore the idea that bullies bully with the intent to make someone self-aware. A strange way to try to improve something, but one worthy of exploration, all the more. In an ideal world we get appropriate feedback from the people […]

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Debt & Hoarding

Reading Time: 6 minutes Somehow the default mode of thinking appears to be something like, “when I have more money, access to more options, more wealth overall – it’s better.” And one of the ways most plebs imagine they can achieve that (and some, eventually, do) is by first taking a loan – to start a business, build a […]

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I don’t want to bother

Reading Time: 9 minutes Today I give a crack at what seems to stop me from asking from other people something they could maybe give to me that I would very much like. It is a big mystery to me – why do I have this attitude – that I do not want to bother people. From writers who […]

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Consideration or Control?

Reading Time: 6 minutes I recall I’ve felt jealous over the personal attention and consideration some people get (classmates, coworkers, rivals, others kinds of peers who one could consider as competition). Now, I wonder: it might never have been consideration (not in all the cases anyway – some might have been, just so you can’t quit reading saying I’m […]

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Energy.

Reading Time: 3 minutes Let’s say I sometimes lose the mood to create anything. I start thinking everything I produce is worthless garbage anyway – it’s just noise, slowing other people down from getting to the good stuff. Usually these moods, I thought, seem to coincide when some idiot logs on to their anon account and comments something insulting. […]

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Through the Lens of Risk 3/99

Reading Time: 6 minutes Just a couple of times I have been asked – but when I have, the answer I give does not seem to be satisfactory, “risk” – is the answer, “what did you learn?” And that was the question. It’s a question that I can’t really answer because I didn’t learn a thing or two. I […]

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6 months in, 6 months out 1/2

Reading Time: 4 minutes This is going to be a terribly personal crash story, maybe to provide an anecdote on how to get into and out from a “rut”. Or call it depression, the non-clinical kind. Or having no-life. I was having the time of my life – creating music, performing some little live shows – we weren’t terribly […]

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6 months in, 6 months out 2/2

Reading Time: 8 minutes In a sense – I am just a few years old. With everyone I had enjoyed having left me – the person I had become – stopped being. Whoever I was back then, the person writing the songs and eager to get to the next rehearsal – could only exist with the people I was […]

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Singles go to Neverland

Reading Time: 8 minutes A new trend looks to be on the rise, once again, where women with children have started to try to shame or make fun (and not in a light spirit) of women who are 30+ and have no children, have not settled, have not married. I do not like this trend, as I don’t see […]

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Fresh! Refresh! Refresh!

Reading Time: 5 minutes I’ve been wanting to post something for a while now – and I’ve started like 5 blog posts with different topics, but soon saw how they got derailed from the topic I wanted to talk about – it got me all confused – and then I realized I simply had nothing to say and felt […]

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A Family of One – The Life of a Stray Cat

Reading Time: 9 minutes Someone describing herself as a “lone wolf” might usually be done for a mysterious effect. On one hand, it might want to signal the capacity for self-sustainability, on the other – it has romantic undertones. A careful person would take from it another signal altogether – she must be a sociopath – can’t keep a […]

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Tribal Spirit

Reading Time: 5 minutes I’ve taken some time to really take in the current situation. But what is the current situation, other than what I can absorb of it in my small office room, various faces of media, conversations with family members, and the sunny weather outside. Because I was somewhat fasting the last week, I also didn’t frequent […]

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Challenging Information

Reading Time: 3 minutes What do I imagine I do a little differently from other people – to prevent myself from falling into the sides that are fighting – the packages offered – and why do I even seem to be doing it? The laziest jumps in thought I can make is when thinking “critical thinking” – it points […]

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A Little Bit of Money

Reading Time: 16 minutes I just realized that a lot more people are bordering poverty than I had previously thought. And for a very long time – I have been there, too. I don’t come from a family who had the mentality to savings, but like so many others here in this country, a family who lived on a […]

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Transformation

Reading Time: < 1 minute This was my first attempt at Stable Diffusion, used via nightcafe. Started with a personal thumbnail sketch photographed and desaturated. Did some post-processing to fix some features of the face in Affinity Photo. Might use it for Eysin’s cover sometime – that is if I can generate in a similar style for the upcoming volumes, […]

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Festival

Reading Time: < 1 minute Generated this colorful lady from internet artwork that already had a face – although it was a stone and looked quite male, no post-processing done. Text prompt: head and shoulders portrait, 8k resolution concept art portrait by Greg Rutkowski, Artgerm, WLOP, Alphonse Mucha dynamic lighting hyperdetailed intricately detailed Splash art trending on Artstation triadic colours […]

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Shieldmaiden

Reading Time: < 1 minute Combined one generated lady face from another generated work with a texture from the internet (had something lying around in the folders). Created many variants of this – picked this particular one due to the charming freckles. Text prompt: head and shoulders portrait, 8k resolution concept art portrait by Greg Rutkowski, Artgerm, WLOP, Alphonse Mucha […]

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Warmask

Reading Time: < 1 minute Generated this out of another generation of a war helmet or mask which looked quite male. Added colors on the go in Krita. Did no further post-processing, although the neck does look uncomfortably thin. There were many other variants to this – but had to stop and pick at some point! Text prompt: head and […]

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How to create beautiful ai-generated images for free!

Reading Time: 2 minutes Hi, for those of you who are new here, I am Silvi, and among other things, I am a professional graphics designer. In this blog post, I am going to instruct you how to create beautiful ai-generated or assisted images – possibly without spending a penny on it. The penniless version works only if you […]

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Valkyrie

Reading Time: < 1 minute Generated this out of the same thumb image that I used for the first one done in nightcafe. This one, however, is done over krita, used coloring and then generated tens and tens of versions – this one is the winner. Text prompt: head and shoulders portrait, 8k resolution concept art portrait by Greg Rutkowski, […]

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Using a tablet as an extra screen with touch/pen features

Reading Time: 2 minutes I can finally use my Samsung Galaxy Tab S3 as an extra screen with insane pen sensitivity! This is something I was looking to do back when I bought the tablet – but back then this wasn’t really an option – not even if you mess around in “deep settings” and download some questionable editing […]

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Seeress

Reading Time: < 1 minute Started going to this direction while a seeming mistake happened to another creation starting from the OT (original thumbnail) – started experimenting with masking out different elements from new generations to arrive at a better result. Also used post-processing since the head became hilariously long. Text prompt: head and shoulders portrait, 8k resolution concept art […]

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Bogmaiden

Reading Time: < 1 minute Combined a photo of birthday flowers and the face of another random generation, kept tweaking and taking small elements from various generations until arrived at this – added some smoke and there it is. Text prompt: head and shoulders portrait, 8k resolution concept art portrait by Greg Rutkowski, Artgerm, WLOP, Alphonse Mucha dynamic lighting hyperdetailed […]

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